T minus 9

T minus 9

We finally crossed into the single digits, nine radiation treatements to go. It’s actually hard for us to imagine that Suzanne has arrived at this point, and how fast it has seemed to be. Unfortunately, speed will not be the norm for the coming weeks, with this week being the hardest so far with throat pain intensifying. The constant pain drags on attitude as well as stamina. Her radiation Doctor suggested that we double up one day next week so…

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The Wall

The Wall

We’ve all been there, that point in a task where you hit a wall and cant’ get any further. Maybe it’s a diet and no matter what you do, you can’t get past a certain weight. Maybe it’s a financial goal of paying off a debt but life’s needs prevent you from reaching it. Maybe it’s a family member whose cold heart you just can’t break through to. I’m sure you can name one in your life right now. Well…

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Forgiveness

Forgiveness

Multiple times Suzanne has shared with me that her one on one with God has been during that period of time from when her radiation technicians strap her head down to the table and leave the room, till the time they come back. It is that time for her that she doesn’t focus on what is happening at that moment in this world, but for her as the song says, “And the things of earth will grow strangely dim”. We…

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Day 64

Day 64

Home on the farm for the weekend, today is just what we need, an uneventful day. Out to the barn to check on the 6-week old kittens. Only two in this litter, both are very large for their age as mom has had plenty to feed them. Usually, by this point, they come running to us because of our daily feeding them warm milk, but these two don’t know us. Colder weather has dictated we start the process of moving…

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Part Shark

Part Shark

In searching my genealogy, I have discovered that somewhere in my family’s past I am somehow related to a shark. Like the shark, I have to keep moving whenever I can. On the farm, it’s not hard to satisfy my need for movement. Spending time indoors especially small spaces is not on my list of things I do well. If I’m on vacation, I want to be ‘out and about’ as much as I can. Checkin, drop the bags, and…

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Is my Judgement Clouded

Is my Judgement Clouded

Suzanne keeps pointing out to me that when we listen to Doctors, I hear all the negative stuff and she hears all the positive stuff.   She is concerned that my judgment is clouded. We make Judgements every day; The amount space to leave between cars when driving; How much time to set the microwave when reheating a burrito; Where to set the shower water handle for the correct temperature. All of these decisions/judgments are based on previous experience, conversations with…

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Time to smell the Roses

Time to smell the Roses

There is nothing like a personal event or a tragedy in a family member’s life to get you to stop and reconsider your priorities. It’s at that moment that you see what you need to do and the actions you need to take. One such moment for me was when I took my dad on an Honor Flight to Washington DC with other WWII veterans. At the age of 93, it was very apparent that ‘Pop’ wasn’t going to be…

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I Repeat myself

I Repeat myself

I’m sure if you have been reading this all along you can find things here and there that are repetitive. My thoughts on how treatments are going; my attitude toward our little apartment (no matter how appreciative I am to have it); the sights & smells of the big city; how supprised the doctors are with Suzanne’s progress. What I didn’t realize is how repetitive I have been with some of the Bible Verses at the close of my daily…

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T minus 15

T minus 15

Suzanne has 15 Radiation treatments to go from the original 35. Today, her reaction to the treatments has been surprisingly minimal. She continues to amaze her doctors with her attitude, stamina, and lack of physical issues. They have also continued to describe a successful reduction in the size of the tumor, which also is better than they expected. The only hiccup in the treatment plan is her blood count. Every Monday she has an extensive bloodwork review. Today, her chemotherapy…

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My wife in Verse

My wife in Verse

Through the years that my wife owned a Quilt & Fabric Store, she would speak at events about her art of quilting. Displaying purses, clothing, wall hangings, and large quilts that she had hand made, she would describe all the techniques that she used in making each item. As she began her presentations, in her opening remarks, she would always quote scripture. Not something that was thought-provoking; not a verse that explained her religious beliefs; not even a verse that…

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